goodbye 2011

     Tahun telah berganti, begitu banyak kenangan yang di dapat di tahun 2011.

Semoga di tahun yang baru ini. bisa menjadi lebih baik, walupun sebenarnya banyak pepatah yang mengatakan "Kamu tak harus menunggu tahun berganti tuk jadi pribadi yg lebih baik. Kamu memiliki kemampuan tuk berubah, kapanpun kamu mau !"

memang benar apa yang  di katakan oleh pepatah tersebut, tetapi setidaknya masa lalu bisa dijadikan pedoman untuk menjadikan masa yang akan datang lebih baik.

     Tahun 2011 telah berakhir.

Untuk orang yang menyayangiku = Terimakasih karena telah membuat hari-hariku menyenangkan.

Untuk orang yang pernah menyakitiku = Terimakasih karena kau telah mengajariku dalam bersabar dan semoga kau tidak merasakan sakit seperti yang kurasakan.

Untuk orang yang pernah kusakiti = Maafkan semua kehilafanku karena aku hanyalah manusia yang jauh dari kesempurnaan.

Untuk sahabatku = Terimakasih karena telah banyak mengajariku tentang hidup, walaupun sekarang kalian semua sudah pergi, semoga kalian mendapatkan teman yang lebih baik daripada aku.

and the last

Untuk Orang yang kusayangi = This is for you Chris brown - Changed man

Begitu banyak kenangan yang amat sangat indah di tahun 2011, mungkin tidak akan pernah terlupakan,

Thanks 2011 although i don't want to say goodbye but you have passed. Thanks for all the joy you bring to my life.

Far East Movement - "If I Was You"

"If I Was You"
(feat. Snoop Dogg)

Ooh
Far East Movement
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Snoop Dogg

I bet you wake up in the morning and you kiss yourself
'Cause I would, if I was you
I bet you show up to the club and just dance with yourself
'Cause I would, if I was you

If I was you girl
Here is what I'd do girl
I'd notice me here at this table, with my crew girl
We sipping goose girl
We getting loose girl
So won't you sit up on my lap with that caboose girl
Shake it out

You ain't a doll, you're a silver dolla
It'll be a crime, if I didn't holla
Take a second, hear me out
If you still don't get it, let me spell it out

O-M-G, you're so sexy
You know you caught my eye with a B-O-O-T-Y
O-M-G, shawty's such a freak
She says she wants to go back to my C-O-N-D-O
Let's go
Let's go

I bet you hop under the covers and play with yourself
'Cause I would, if I was you
I bet you stand up in the mirror and stare at yourself
'Cause I would, if I was you

If I was you girl
It be me and you girl
Would be no question, teach you lessons in my room girl
And if you with it girl, then you can get it girl
And if you thinkin' it, let's start drinkin', let it go girl
Check it out

You ain't a doll, you're a silver dolla
It'll be a crime, if I didn't holla
Take a second, hear me out
If you still don't get it, let me spell it out

O-M-G, you're so sexy
You know you caught my eye with a B-O-O-T-Y
O-M-G shawty's such a freak
She says she wants to go back to my C-O-N-D-O
Let's go, go, go, go, go, go, go, go, go

'Guess'

    Besok adalah hari yang mungkin amat sangat membosankan, di mana saya akan menghadapi Ujian Akhir Semester Agama, yang bahakan sampai detik ini saya belum berniat untuk menghapal, tapi untungnya Uas Biology dan biology praktikum telah terlewatkan.

     Okeeey ntah kenapa malam ini aku merasa ingin bermain tebak - tebakan. aku benar - benar sudah merasa setres tingkat dewa.

 Let's begin.
maybe better if  i give you some clue :
1. Dia adalah sebuah benda yang disukai para wanita.
2. Sangat munafik apabila seorang wanita berkata dia tidak membutuhkannya.
3. kalo kata anak biologi termasuk kingdom mollusca yaitu sesuatu yang lunak.
4. Tidak mempunyai tulang.
5. Apabila digunakan dengan baik akan membawa anda kepada surga.
6. Dan apabila salah menggunakan akan membawa anda kedalam neraka jahannam.


And  I think this is a very easy to guess.

This song make me wanna dance

"Like A Virgin Again"
(Chris Brown with Tyga)


[Pre-chorus:]
This is for ma grown,
This is for ma grown and sexy ass women (women women women)
This is this is this is for ma grown,
This is for ma grown and sexy ass women,
Women this is for ma grown...

[Chris Brown:]
Let it rain, let it rain, let it rain
Cause its getting hot girl,
Give me all you got girl
Don't have to rush, ain't going nowhere
I'll take off your thong, put you're legs in the air
Girl I'm gonna pick you up, pick you up
Rock you like a baby
Loving you so crazy
I'm gone' make you have a flash back
To your first time
But this time you know just what you like so. 

 

[Chorus:]
Dont be acting shy up in this room
Like I make you nervous (ohh)
Ima take my time and do your body right
If you let me (uh huh)
Ima make you feel like a virgin again, again
Ima make you feel like a virgin again, again
Ima make you feel like a virgin again, again
Ima make you feel like a virgin,
Promise ima make it all worth it
Ima make you feel like a virgin again

[Pre-chorus]

[Tyga:]
Let me kiss you to start it off
Damn your lips so soft
Make a nigga wanna bite them off
This what you wa-wanted huh?
Ima be ure porn star
Baby take ure clothes off
Let me taste between ure legs,
Dang you got me so hard
If I get it ima hit it right (right)
I know you tired, its the middle of the night
Wanna give you that good love
Fall in love with me shorty you just might (might)
(ass up)
Legs up to the sky
I know this aint ure first time
So baby dont be.

This song make me shudders

Bruno Mars - Runaway

 So easy to forget our love,  

The little things we do, Like calling for no reason Just to say the words "Baby I love you,"

I know lately, I've been busy But a second doesn't go by Without you crossing my mind 

It's been so long since we had time Let's take a day & make everything right

Just take my hand, fall in love with me again 

 *(Reff)*

Let's runaway to the place Where love first found us Lets runaway for the day Don't need anyone around us

When everything in love gets so complicated, It only takes a day to change it. What I have to say can't wait All I need is a day

So let's runaway  Let's runaway, just for the day Runaway, runaway

Girl, you've been so patient Spending nights alone & not complaining But I'll make it up to you, 

And I promise today I won't keep you waiting Please give me this one chance To remind you of everything we have  

I won't give up I'm too much in love And I want you to know that

Just take my hand, fall in love with me again Let's runaway to the place Where love first found us Let's runaway for the day, Don't need anyone around us
When everything in love gets so complicated It only takes a day to change it What I have to say can't wait All I need is a day
So let's runaway for the day And I'll give everything in this moment And I promise to make everyday just like the day Let's runaway to the place Here love first found us.

Surat Untuk Leri

         Leri arnanda putri, dia adalah sahabat yang saya pernah ceritakan di posting sebelumnya. Kami Bersahabat sudah lebih dari  tahun, dan sekarang semua hancur berkeping-keping bahkan saya tidak pernah kenapa itu semua terjadi.

     

              She the best friend ever i had and probably i will never found people like her again. she very smart, beautiful even inner beauty in her soul.

     Barangkali habis masa masa SMA kami hanya untuk mendengarkan cerita tentang hidup saya, bahkan yang sebenarnya itu tidak penting dalam hidupnya, But she care about me, about my life, and wanna help me to be a better man.

    Sampai hari ini, bahkan detik ini, maybe she still mad at me, dia tidak pernah menegur maupun mengetahui tentang saya lagi, dan mungkin dia sudah mendapatkan Sahabat baru dalam lingkungan hidupnya yang baru, dan pastinya yang lebih baik daripada saya.

Tapi saya hanya ingin dia tau bahwa saya tidak akan pernah mendapatkan sahabat yang sebaik dirinya,

 

      Di kesempatan kali ini, saya akan mencoba menyampaikan beberapa pesan untuk leri.

*** Leri anda adalah orang yang pernah menyentuh hidupku, membuat hidupku menjadi lebih baik, memotivasi aku dalam belajar, baik tentang pengetahuan maupun tentang kehidupan. mungkin aku sering berbuat salah kepadamu, membuatmu marah ataupun benci, tapi aku hanya ingin kau tau bahwa kau tidak akan pernah aku lupakan. kau sangat berjasa dalam hidupku, kau adalah sahabat yang paling ku sayangi yang pernah ada. 

Seandainya kau tau keadaanku saat ini, aku merasa terpuruk tanpamu, tiada tempat untuk berbagi kisah suka maupun duka dan tidak ada tempat untuk berbagi ilmu.

seandainya aku di beri satu kesempatan lagi, mungkin aku akan berusaha untuk menjadi lebih baik dalam hidupmu. tapi aku tau, kesempatan hanya datang sekali dan tentunya itu sangat mustahil untuk datang keduakalinya. sebagai orang yang pernah merasa terluka atas sifat maupun kelakuanku, ku mohon agar kau memaafkanku.***

   Semoga suatu saat leri membaca surat ini dan mengerti bagaimana apa yang saya rasakan sebenarnya, bukannya saya tidak peduli denga leri, dan bukannya saya tidak ingin meminta maaf secara langsung, tapi saya takut membuat keadaan menjadi lebih buruk jika saya bertemu dengannya.

Reason

     Di malam minggu yang sunyi ini, saya mencoba menulis beberapa kata yang ingin  diungkapkan.
bahkan sebenarnya saya tidak tau ingin menulis apa, karena saya merasa seperti orang yang bisu, semenjak duduk di bangku Mipa, saya merasa sedikit menjadi pendiam. bahkan saya tidak tau ingin mencurahkan apa yang saya rasakan kepada siapa? Mau curhat sama mama (sudah mulai berfikir, masa curhat sama mama terus)
Bahkan saya merasa tidak mempunyai seorang sahabat, karena mungkin di dalam hidup saya, saya tidak ingin mempunyai yang namanya sahabat lagi, baiklah disini saya akan mencoba memberikan beberapa alasan.
mungkin terlebih dahulu saya ingin bertanya kepada anda yang membaca blog ini?
Ketika seseorang datang padamu, disaat dia membutuhkanmu, tetapi dia tidak pernah ada disaat kamu yang membutuhkannya?bahkan diapun sebenarnya tidak pernah mengganggapmu ada di dalam kehidupannya. (apakah itu dinamakan sahabat) mungkin akan lebih baik jika kalian yang menjawabnya sendiri.
      Lebih tepatnya lagi hidup itu memang sendiri seperti dalam Hukum FISIKA "Jika tidak ada hasil yang didapat, maka tidak ada usaha yang dilakukan'', mungkin seperti itulah lebih tepatnya dalam hidup ini.
saya lebih baik menganggap seseorang itu hanya sebatas teman saja, dan berusaha untuk menjaga hubungan itu agar tidak naik sampai ke jenjang sahabat.
Karena :
               (Ketika seseorang yang kamu sayangi menyakitimu, itu akan terasa lebih menyakitkan dibanding dengan seseorang yang kamu anggap biasa menyakitimu)
Dan saya rasa ini benar-benar terbukti.
Oleh karena itu, saya hanya berusaha menjalani hidup yang datar ini dengan penuh rasa syukur kepada tuhan yang telah menciptakan saya dan masih mau memberikan saya kesempatan untuk bernafas.
Mulai sekarang saya tidak akan berbohong pada diri saya lagi, apapun yang saya inginkan, saya akan berusaha untuk mendapatkannya. Dan akan selalu berusaha untuk Tidak akan berpura-pura membenci jika sesungguhnya menyukai. Semoga allah senantiasa bersama orang-orang yang memiliki niat yang baik. amiiiin

Michael Jackson - I Just Can't Stop Loving You

 

Each Time The Wind Blows
I Hear Your Voice So
I Call Your Name . .

Whispers At MorningOur Love Is Dawning
Heaven's Glad You Came . . .
You Know How I Feel
This Thing Can't Go Wrong
I'm So Proud To Say
I Love You
Your Love's Got Me High
I Long To Get By
This Time Is Forever
Love Is The Answer

I Hear Your Voice Now
You Are My Choice NoThe Love You Bring
Heaven's In My Heart
At Your Call
I Hear Harps,
And Angels Sing
You Know How I Feel
This Thing Can't Go Wrong
I Can't Live My Life
Without You
I Just Can't Hold On
I Feel We Belong
My Life Ain't Worth Living
If I Can't Be With You

(Reff)
I Just Can't Stop Loving You
I Just Can't Stop Loving You
And If I Stop . . .
Then Tell Me Just What
Will I Do
'Cause I Just Can't Stop
Loving You


At Night When The
Stars Shine
I Pray In You I'll Find
A Love So True . . .
When Morning Awakes Me
Will You Come And Take Me
I'll Wait For You
You Know How I Feel
I Won't Stop Until
I Hear Your Voice Saying
"I Do"
"I Do"
This Thing Can't Go Wrong
This Feeling's So Strong
Well, My Life Ain't
Worth Living
If I Can't Be With You

I Just Can't Stop Loving You
I Just Can't Stop Loving You
And If I Stop . . .
Then Tell Me, Just What
Will I Do
I Just Can't Stop Loving You

(bridge)
We Can Change All The World
Tomorrow
We Can Sing Songs Of
Yesterday
I Can Say, Hey . . .Farewell
To Sorrow
This Is My Life And I
Want To See You For Always
I Just Can't Stop Loving You
No, Baby
Oh!

Jay sean - Maybe

Beep Beep Oh Look Now There Goes My Phone
And Once Again Im Just Hoping Its A Text From You
It Aint Right i read your Messages Twice thrice
Four Times A Night Its True
Everyday I Patiently Wait
Feeling Like A Fool But I Do Anyway
Nothing Can Feel As Sweet And As Real
As Knowing I Wasn't Waiting In Vain

(Chorus)
And Maybe Its True (may be its true) I'm caught Up On You
Maybe Theres A Chance That you're
Stuck On Me Too
So Maybe I'm wrong Its All In My Head
Maybe We're Afraid of Words We Both Hadn't Said

I'm Always Connected Online
Hooked On *Facebook* All The Time
Hoping You've Checked My Profile
just cant help wondering why
you play it cool cz,
im hopelessly falling for you

*every nite on my phone i hook up with you
and i don't even like it girl
all chokin in side
why don't you and i
come out and see what were trying to hide *

(Chorus)
And Maybe Its True Oh (may be its true) I'm caught Up On You
(Maybe Yeh)Maybe Thers A Chance That You're Stuck On Me Too
So Maybe I'm wrong Its All,In My Head
Maybe We're Afraid Words We Both Hadn't Said

*like i really want you
i think i need you
baby i miss you
im thinking of you* (*2)

(Chorus)
And Maybe Its True Oh (may be its true) I'm caught Up On You
(Maybe Yeh)Maybe Thers A Chance That You're Stuck On Me Too
So Maybe I'm wrong Its All,In My Head
Maybe We're Afraid Words We Both Hadn't Said (*2)

maybe it is true
im caught up on you
maybe i am wrong
baby i miss you

Travis Garland - Second Try

[Speaking] 

Baby I'm not perfect I make mistakes But I know I can make this right If you give me a second try, uh

Baby, only God knows what I was thinking When I did those things to you Empty is all that I can feel, no emotion Can feel the space I used to keep for you.
And I just wanna go back, take it all back You know, I didn't mean it baby Don't you hold it against me, yeah And don't just hit it like that, Yeah I messed up, but I lost my way, I swear I'll find a road that leads back to your heart.

[Chorus:]

 If I could just rewind, I'd call when I said I would I'd wipe the tears I put there I'd stay that time I left you hangin' If I could turn back time to the day that I met you I'd never let it you get away, on my second try. Let me try again, try again, try again, try again, Let me try, Give me one more chance, one more chance, Give me a second try.

Sorry doesn't even come close to sayin' How stupid I feel for what I've done, And it's crazy I can't even ask your forgiveness 'Cause I can't forgive myself for what I've become.
And I just wanna go back, take it all back You know, I didn't mean it baby Please don't hold it against me, yeah And don't just hit it like that, Yeah I messed up, but I lost my way, I swear I'll find a road that leads back to your heart.

[Chorus:] 

If I could just rewind, I'd call when I said I would (I'ma wipe those tears) I'd wipe the tears I put there, I'd stay that time I left you hangin' (Left you hangin') If I could turn back time to the day that I met you I'd never let it you get away, on my second try. Let me try again, try again, try again, try again, Let me try, (Give me another chance) Give me one more chance, one more chance, Give me a second try.

(Let me know what you think) I just want you to know, ('Till you let it fall back) If you'll gimme another shot, (Now i've finally learnt) I don't even blame you. (To appreciate what I don't have) But I can't just go back (Let me know what you think) To loving you from a distance ('Till you let it go back) Here's your door (Now I've finally learnt) Tell me what I have to do (To appreciate what I don't have) For you to let me back in
And I just wanna go back

[Chorus:]

 If I could just rewind, I'd call when I said I would I'd wipe the tears I put there (Gotta find the road) I'd stay that time I left you hangin' (That leads back to your heart') If I could turn back time to the day that I met you I'd never let it you get away, on my second try. Let me try again, try again, try again, try again, (And I just wanna go back, take it all back) Give me one more chance, one more chance, Let me try again, try again, try again, try again (Don't just hit it like that, did it like that) Give me one more chance, one more chance

Let me try again, try again, try again Give me one more chance, one more chance And I'll never let you get away.

Bruno Mars - Starting Today

We had a date, I stood you up You tried to call but I didn't pick up See I forgot about our plans.

Please forgive your man for ruining your night so many times
I'm sorry, I know you're mad And I don't wanna be like every other man that you've had 

So I'm stopping all these childish things, girl, you mean too much to me Your love is worth too much to lose

(Reff)
Girl, I know I broke your heart and trusting me is really hard But watch how quick I change my ways.

starting today, starting today I know that I'm the one to blame, you say every man's the same But watch how quick I change my ways.. starting today, starting today Girl, I'm starting today.
 

You're tired of playing the kiss and make up game And I apologize for the man I became If I could do it all again, I wouldn't hurt my best friend And I'd throw away all my selfish ways.

I'm sorry, I know you're mad And I don't wanna be like every other man that you've had So I'm stopping all these childish things, girl, you mean too much to me Your love is worth too much to lose
 

(Reff)
Girl, I know I broke your heart and trusting me is really hard But watch how quick I change my ways.

starting today, starting today I know that I'm the one to blame, you say every man's the same But watch how quick I change my ways.. starting today, starting today Girl, I'm starting today.

Chris Brown - Treading Water

oh ohhhh oh ohhhh
you said I'm not giving enough but baby girl I'm trying so hard to..keep up, when you fear that Imma always leave you lonely
but you see that I want us to last forever and my heart stays open darling you know It will get better
but you know that shit wont happen over night we just gotta give love a try and when you look beside you girl I'll be there
**Ref:
when It rains down your face tell me where do the tears end updon't wanna drown In the rivers of your sorrow
and I, I will swimn a thousand miles just for one minute to see you smile
so I'm treading water, I'm treading water please don't cry cause your drowning me

oh ohhhh oh ohhhh

what do you say what to do you mean
that you blame me why Is It today, that you doubted me
that Imma always leave you lonely but you'll see that I want us to last forever
and my heart stays open darling you know It will get better
but you know that shit wont happen over night we just gotta give love a try and when you look beside you girl I'll be there
**Ref:
when It rains down your face tell me where do the tears end up
don't wanna drown in the rivers of your sorrow
and I, I will swimn a thousand miles just for one minute to see you smile
so I'm treading water, I'm treading water please don't cry cause your drowning me

oh ohhhh oh ohhhh